Jen here… so Jo’s post earlier today about a play challenge (20 minutes a day for 20 days) TOTALLY TRIGGERED ME!
I thought I’d share what came up for me in case it soothes/supports anyone else’s triggers… or perhaps you noticed some different ones to mine? If so please do share, you’re in safe company 😉
EGO MIND: 20 MINUTES A DAY? AS IF I’VE GOT TIME TO COMMIT 20 MINUTES A DAY…
Kind voice: heyyyyyy youuuuuu woahhhhhh what’s that all about? take a breath
EGO MIND: I ALREADY FEEL OVERWHELMED AND THERES NOT ENOUGH TIME TO WALK THE DOG THIS WEEK AS IF I’VE GOT THE ENERGY AND TIME TO COMMIT TO YET ANOTHER THING EVERY DAY GRRRR
Kind voice: No ones making you do anything, breath some more, it’s an invitation to play that’s all. An invitation
EGO MIND: I’D LOVE TO EFFIN PLAY. I DON’T WANT TO BE LEFT OUT FROM THE FUN
Kind voice: Ok, well that’s good to know. Take another breath
EGO MIND: (I’m not listening) WELL ITS OK FOR JO SHE LIVES ON A BUS AND HAS GOT THIS SORTED (note to self I’m a failure)
Kind voice: woooahhhh take a breath. take a deeper breath. You are not a failure. Your life will never be comparable to anyone else because it’s yours
EGO MIND: ERRRRR CAN’T FIND ANYTHING ANNOYING TO SAY BACK TO YOU… WHO ARE YOU ANYWAY?
Kind voice: I’m your wiser inner child, I’m here ready to play, when you’re ready and when it’s the right time…
EGO MIND: I’M TOO WRAPPED UP WORRYING ABOUT OTHER STUFF I HAVE TO PRIORITISE (hello petulant child)
Kind voice: We know. It’s ok. And remember you get to choose what to prioritise and when
EGO MIND: I’m jealous really. And annoyed at myself that I’m choosing this and not that. Humph it’s all my fault then
Kind voice: Its always within us you ninny, never about anyone else. I love you
EGO MIND: WHATEVs
Kind voice: I still love you
Hilarious what our minds can do and where they can go all in the space of 10 minutes. And I finally did give myself a permission slip to knock off early and play with spiritual kooky stuff which was great. And I do envy Jo and I’m so glad she’s in my life lighting up my darker corners for me to heal.
Anyone else recognise this pattern??
(don’t leave me hanging…..)