Physical Disconnection

As our month on connection draws to a close (just our focus… not connection itself obviously!) I’m reflecting…

I am much more connected to nature these days. An incremental shift that I hadn’t noticed so much as it happened but as I look back see it’s something that’s quite different from how it used to be.

I notice I drop in and out of connection with others as priorities and requirements for my time shifts and changes… which perhaps isn’t helpful for others as they feel the inconsistency.

And although I feel more connected to me in lots of ways I’m still pretty disconnected in others. If I think about my 4 selves… physical, mental, emotional and spiritual…

I feel pretty connected to my spiritual self (perhaps this is my natural self and so explains my deeper connection to the natural world)… my purpose… trusting in my higher self to guide me more and more…

I feel my meditation has helped me connect with my mental self too… or maybe disconnect with my mental self 😂 I’m less entrenched in thoughts and can abstract from them to notice busy thoughts… getting too involved in them.

Hmmm… my emotional self… I’m more able to connect with feelings and really feel them… although not always and I still feel I’ve plenty of work to do here.

But I feel I’m still totally disconnected from my physical self! Weirdly it’s like it doesn’t belong to me! If I go to yoga I have to very consciously talk to it, telling it things like… brain tell left shoulder to drop… drop left shoulder… ok dropping left shoulder… brain tell hips to square… square hips… ok squaring hips! And if I go for a massage I notice I’m repeatedly telling my physical self to relax, let go… I wonder if my excess weight is related to not connecting with my body… not believing it’s mine… not owning it… I wonder how I connect more… As I write I’m getting messages about embracing and loving my physical self. Maybe that’s the answer…

Anyone else had this?

What helped or changed things for you?