How do you reconnect?

I haven’t been feeling very #connected to me of late.

Noticing all the places where I keep giving away my personal power, in love relationships, friendships, family, work, clients, finances, even at home…

This isn’t a bad thing… and nor am I judging myself for it, just noticing it.

In this theme that’s emerging for me I’m doing more healing (if I dare to lurk under the lid… and of course there is a time and place for lurking… sometimes there just isn’t enough resources for that… and that’s also ok) I’ve been ready for this lesson of empowerment for a while… it’s been surfacing ALOT! (uncomfortably so sometimes).

In some way I’ve been choosing to recreate the situation of hopeless and helpless and getting stuck in the battle of ‘trying to control’ it (like I’m replaying my sexual trauma, a time when I was unable to control anything other than whether I lived or not…)

Note to self…. there’s a lesson I’m still not getting here… another layer of healing required….

  • More surrender required…
  • Everything has it’s divine timing…
  • You cannot force or push healing…
  • When the time and person are ready…

And so in my disconnection, I took myself and Murphy dog to Filey beach one evening last week. I knew I was getting into my head too much trying to ‘control’ the difficulty I was experiencing. I didn’t have the answers but I knew I’d feel better if I took off my shoes and put my feet on the sand, allowing the waves to wash over my worries and feel more grounded to the earth again.

And without trying.. once I’d let go some more, a few days later the wisdom started to surface from deeper within, not from my head. You’ve been giving your power away. Putting other peoples needs first. taking too much responsibility for others. More letting go required…

What’s your survival response for being in your head too much and losing sense of connection?

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